This has SO much meaning to me...maybe in July, I'll be able share in more detail! |
This year, Emmy asked me if I would speak on infertility. Quickly, I said yes, knowing that I had several months to plan my talk and think about what I might want to share. Well, I thought about it a lot in the months leading up to Choose Joy, but it wasn't until about a week ago that I actually started putting pen to paper (yes, I'm still old school that way) and writing an outline for my talk. What was I thinking??? Here I sat, realizing that I had agreed to share about my heart's deepest suffering! Oh my, my, my! I finally figured out how I wanted to organize my talk and what I would share, but there was just one problem...every time I sat down to practice my talk, I would burst into tears and I couldn't get through it.
Let me just say that my infertility journey started back in 2001. That was 13 years ago, but as I recounted each step of our journey, the pain felt so fresh. I was actually shocked by my reaction to the whole process. I practiced over and over again, and then I just prayed that I wouldn't have a total meltdown during my sessions. I wanted to be real, but I didn't want any of it to be about me (and my crying!). There were many fears going in, but I just prayed for God to bring the people He wanted to hear my sessions and I prayed that He would use my words for peace, healing, and encouragement.
He is so faithful. As I sat down to each session, I felt His complete peace (I was still nervous about the talking part, but I just trusted in what He was doing). What a gift each session turned out to be. It was obvious that the people who were there needed to hear our story and how the Lord was so completely faithful to our family - even in our suffering - even in His silence. Afterwards, I was able to talk with several couples and hear their stories, which was an encouragement to my heart as well. I was thankful that I went out on faith to share my story - not for my own sake, but so that God could get the glory.
With my sweet friend, Brianne, who shared about her THREE international adoptions! |
Do you have a story to share? Are there ways that God has worked in your life and your heart that would bring Him glory if you simply shared? I think so often I get caught up in the idea that I'm no expert and so I have nothing valuable to share. But, that's just not true. I sat in other sessions yesterday and talked with many people who are not experts, but in sharing their stories, they encouraged my heart and my faith. They gave me perspective that I needed, and they used their unique journeys to bring glory to God.
I even got to share the day with my dearest friend Holly. Seriously, we've been friends since 1979ish...yeah, we're old. |